BLESS YOU!"

DAY 13/30/13/JUNE/2020 

"BLESS YOU!"

I got up from the chair and suddenly it felt lighter. That was strange. I went to the washroom. It felt awkwardly silent in there.  After I was done I went upro the basin. I washed my hands and looked up as we normally do and was taken aback. The mirror did not show my reflection.  I lost control and slipped back. After gaining control, I slowly tried to get up and again attempted to look in the mirror. Damn! I couldn't see myself. I felt myself and I could. I cannot describe the emotion as I was completely unaware of what I was experiencing. I rushed out of the washroom in complete horror back to my seat and froze by the chair when I reached there. I could see myself in the chair, sitting with my face covered in a handkerchief. I pinched myself just to know if it was for real or dream. "Ouch" I felt the pinch.

I saw my wife sitting next to me sipping coffee, reading a magazine. I calmed myself and tried to put the math together. Just to reconfirm I checked some other mirrors in the house. Even they did not show my reflection.  

I had tears in my eyes and concluded that I was dead. My body was still there and the soul was let free. I looked at my wife and realized that she hadn't realized yet, that I was gone.  My heart cried out for her.  I dreaded the moment when she would realize the brutal truth. Oh! God! She would be so shattered and broken without me as it would be s9 unexpected. I had only turned sixty last month and this was no age to pass away. Besides I also happened to have good health. I was regular with my exercise regime, watched my diet well and did my medicals regularly. I was as fit as I could be at that age. Even I didn't expect such a thing.

"Poor Marie! I love her and miss her." I said to myself. I thought of my kids. I missed them too, so much at that moment. My life clips played in front of my eyes in a jiffy.

While that was running, I started realizing that there were so many things still pending on the to do list. I had barely accomplished my bucket list. There were so many people I wanted to meet for various reasons. To some I wanted to express my gratitude, to some I wanted to apologize, to some I wanted to give some advice, to some I wanted to let them know that I love them so much. I had tears rolling down my cheeks. I repented keeping so many things pending in life. I desperately wanted my life back to complete that pending list. I would have also been ok to get only one month to complete my tasks. It came down to one month after wasting a lifetime. I was going through mixed emotions. I was sad, angry, disappointed, regretful. The only thing that repeatedly kept playing in my head was "If only I could my life back for one last time, I would set everything right. I felt desperate.

I also realized that probably along with the money I should have also helped Marie get back in touch with her hobbies. That way she wouldn't have missed me so much, felt lonely and eventually  frustrated.

I sat near the chair with my head in my legs and started cursing myself for not planning well. For not completing many important tasks of life. I started pleading in my mind to please give me one more chance to go back in that body. I even tried running up a patch and banging myself on my body to go back in. Didn't work that way. I wished and wished and wished hardee everytime and "whoish" ! Got pulled back into the body and the body breathed. I couldn't believe myself. I came back to senses and looked around. My wife was looking at me. I also thought that she was saying something. I said, "Excuse me! What?" She said,"Nothing honey! You sneezed. So I said bless you" and smiled at me. I smiled back  and said "Thank you darling!"

 

© - Rahul Shinde 13/JUN/2020